MEASURING (IN)SINCERITY.

I have masteredthe ritual. I should be seriouslyremarkable by now. but all my godsare goal posts /ghostsgood health cannot movethrough. i am the reason ironingboards have coversas useless as the hailmary after skipping a meal.i am a miracle offcut.i am a doctrine-hooded heretic.a whole bunch of uswere expecting a differencebetween sent up andgiven up by now. what is disappointmentif nota huge relief. If every prayer is a pleawhy am i still waiting to berealised?. [Extracted from the article]