Getting big but not hard: A retrospective case-study of a male powerlifter's experience of steroid-induced erectile dysfunction.

• ED may persist for years after cessation and even after testosterone levels return to normal. • The same logic that stimulates the consumption of steroids applies to attempts to speed up recovery. • Knowledge of adverse side effects does not deter future consumption. • Consumers of steroids engage in a process of fetishistic disavowal. • Misaligned treatment of ED risks extending time-to-recovery. This article aims to excavate the lived experience of suffering with steroid-induced erectile dysfunction. By drawing upon original qualitative data, we chart the subjective journey to recovery of a male powerlifter and draw attention to the potential dangers of a self-help approach to treatment. Erectile dysfunction is a common symptom of anabolic-androgenic steroid-induced hypogonadism, a condition not commonly reported or discussed and is therefore a poorly studied health issue. Often considered a taboo subject, detailed accounts of men's experience of erectile dysfunction are relatively sparce, and so this paper makes an important contribution to bolstering what is a limited literature base. Links between contemporary conceptions of masculinity, muscularity, and sexual prowess are explored and form the basis of a critical analysis of popular treatment and prevention strategies. Among the central findings, this article suggests that steroids are not consumed despite the well-known risks, but precisely because the risks are well-known and ostensibly mitigated through engagement with 'bro-science'. We conclude that there is a concerning misalignment in current treatment and prevention strategies that needs to be addressed if the issue of non-prescribed steroid use is to be effectively tackled. This research therefore raises serious questions for the healthcare profession and its approach towards treating and preventing steroid consumption. [ABSTRACT FROM AUTHOR]