"I've never told anyone that before ...".

I met Juan in the summer of 2019 at the Clínica de Comunidad Sinaí, a men's drug and alcohol rehabilitation center in Sinaloa, Mexico. If degree of confession were assessed only by degree of bodily exertion, it would seem that Juan's confession was elsewhere in the narrative. * * * This moment with Juan exemplifies a particular genre of fieldwork confession, which I am calling the I first disclosure i : those moments marked as the first utterance of a story that the speaker claims has never been told. If confessions require effort and revelations require overcoming resistance (Foucault et al., [4]), Juan's tortured recounting of his wife's infidelities and the chaos and pain being a known cuckold caused him could not have better fulfilled these requirements. [Extracted from the article]