Being brown: An autoethnographic exploration of internalised colonisation.

We are all contextualised within our personal and political histories. In this text, I seek to reflect on 'internalised colonisation' by means of an autoethnography, using post-colonial and psychodynamic theory to deconstruct and make sense of my lived experience. I explore how the complex colonial dynamics of India and Britain play themselves out within my being and lived experiences as an Indian student in the UK. I use this text as a plea to legitimise the exploration of racism and other forms of discrimination within the therapy room as they can be experienced as deeply personal, violent and intimately traumatic. When we develop the capacity to delve into not just our personal but political pasts, we begin to acknowledge the depth of colonial trauma and its relevance even today. [ABSTRACT FROM AUTHOR]